We are very pleased to announce that celebrated actress Agam Darshi will be writing for our Get Inspired section . Agam is well known for her roles in Sanctuary, Dan for Mayor and 2012. She is also the co-founder of Vancouver International South Asian Film Festival.
My name is Agam Darshi. I am an actor.
As a little brown kid with a funny name, growing up in random cities across Canada I dreamed that one day I would be doing exactly what I am doing today: acting. I loved to entertain. I loved to be creative. I loved to ‘pretend’ and to tell stories.
But my desire to be an actor also came from a place inside me where I never quite fit in, and I would imagine that if I could just be something special maybe life would be a little easier. We moved around a lot, my family and I, and that flair some people have to make new friends and adapt to new environments with such ease and grace, was never something I had. I would hide in my imagination and dream of places I wanted to go, things I wanted to do, and people I wanted to be.
Despite my desire to be an actor as a child, growing up I came to the conclusion that acting was perhaps not the most logical choice in life. The famous mantra so many broken people love to repeat had stuck in my head: “How many starving actors are there in the world”? So I did the most practical thing I could do: Go to art school. I majored in visual arts and decided I would become a photographer. But that inner actor did not die. So I minored in theatre too, just for shits and giggles…and maybe to keep my soul alive.
I graduated university, moved to Vancouver and got a job at a sad little web company designing logos and building websites. But in the meantime I was encouraged by a former teacher to search for a talent agent – because I “might do well in TV and film.” So I did.
My path was an easy one at the beginning. I found a good agent, booked my first audition and worked on a recurring role for a TV show. 4 months later I was flown to LA for a screen test. I was innocent to the business. I didn’t realize this was supposed suck. No, my blood, sweat and tears didn’t come until a few years later. It wasn’t until I had fully given myself over to the Acting Gods that they decided I needed to pay my dues. And I did, in my own way. I have had my share of disappointments, ‘almost’ roles, and bad auditions.
And I still do. The learning curve never ceases to amaze me. Just when I think I got a handle on it all, life punches me in the face and gives a dose of ‘growth’. I blame myself however. I yearn for change as much as I am terrified of it.